After University Life: Nostalgia After Two Years, What Have I Learned?

After two years since I graduated in college, I got my yearbook, my graduation photos, and all those stuff included in the almost 4k package (requirement to graduate actually). I got my yearbook first months ago, and yesterday, my photos in pack that came with a mug and a sort of flag or whatever in cardboard. Well, I am not talking much about these things. My experiences were then seemed like a nostalgia for me.

I went to the university [campus] once again for several times since months. But, every time I go in from the security, and take my footsteps in the hallway, I always remember several things that happened in this university after a long time. All the memories were recalled. Everything. From the bad to good student life were re-experienced once again.

Whenever I hear the laughter in groups, I remember how my life was as a student. Behind these laughter were big struggles earning higher grades from Nazi professors. This is really true especially to those scholars alike. I was a scholar. So, I really know how it feels like to do much sacrifices in order to impress every class instructor to get good grades [to maintain the scholarship].

Love. Another thing to remember. A cool thing about it is whenever I experience downs before, I always go to the chapel. And there in the pews, I silently cry. This is the only place where I could really express myself freely away from the people. Seriously, I don't want other people to see me crying. Because for me, crying is a symbol of weakness. Well, that was before, when I used to wear the best mask of pretense.

I closed my eyes in the pews once again after two years. Amid silence, I could still clearly remember what I prayed in front of the cross. "Lord, why do I have to experience this kind of pain? Would there be a man who would treat me like a queen or at least, a woman? Would there be a big possibility a man would love me and accept for who I am and willing to accept my flaws and downfalls? Would there be a man to exist who would really love me deeper than the Pacific?"

During that time, I just hear silence. I cried once again as I recall it. Because although I am in the same pew where I sat two years ago, there I was again, in teary-eyes, I said my prayer, "Lord, thank you for giving me such a man who would do everything for me. A man who would really love me for who I am and a man who would respect me and accept my whole love for him. A man who would really love me back and will never let me fall down and left behind. He may be stupid, I would be more stupid to let him go."

It sounds romantic. Yes, it is. Lesson learned here. Wait.
I have to wait for to years to know him. I felt my terrible heartache in 2012, and fell in love again in two years time. 2014 for me is the best year.

I learned to love. Above all, I learned to trust again and to commit. I played men before. Now, my views have changed.

Wait. Right now, I am waiting again. When would I able to meet him in person?
When would I be with him and stay with him? When would I be able to help him in his plans for us? When?

I will wait. Best things come in God's timing.

Salutatory Speech Way Back 2005; A Quick Recall To How I Made It In Front in Grade School

My Salutatory Speech
Riverdale Grade School
Delivered March 2005

Honorable guests,
Faculty members and staff of Riverdale Grade School, headed by our beloved principal, Mrs. Maybelle Soriano.
Mr. and Mrs. Sigfried Soriano, the founders of this institution
Our school directress, Mrs. Marjorie Austria
Parents, co-graduates, ladies and gentlemen,
Good afternoon.

Welcome to this memorable occasion on the 3rd graduation rite in this laudable center of learning. Today is one of our momentous events as graduates of this school. This shall be remembered because we successfully passed the first segment of our educational ladder. Yes, gone are the days of homework, exam, and other school activities. But this, my fellow graduates, is just the beginning of reaching our dreams.

It is indeed my pleasure and great privilege to be speaking to you today. At this occasion that marks the successful passage of 28 students inluding me from Riverdale Grade School.

I, therefore, wish to extend my heartfelt congratulations to each and every graduand, equipped with firm determination to succeed in their elementary years. Bonafide graduates, statistically, nearly all of us will be marching not only the perdon seated beside us, but also to remind us that the person is our classmate, a future high school student and a very possibly friend. As a student, it will be difficult and harrowing experience. But it is much more bearable if we go through it with people you're familiar and comfortable with.

Today, it s our turn. So be good to each other and act with honor - because our reputation will be a legacy to this institution. As we leave the portions of our dear alma matter, we have a very fulfilling and enriching years ahead of us. And I wish that all of us will achieve our greatest dream and future glory through the best education that everyone will pursue.

In closing, I offer my heartiest congratulations to all of us, my co-graduates. "Education is not a preparation for life, education is life itself. The future is ours to make the best of. I wish our success and happiness in whatever we do.

Thank you and good afternoon.